First Thoughts

… feeling a little lost and aimless… trying to make the work, wishing something would come of it… good ideas, good intentions, difficulty following through…

… one cocktail last night (it is the weekend)… i mixed myself a second one, but decided to flush it down the drain… yay me!… kitchen cleaned up and ready to go, i feel this morning as i would feel with no cocktail…

… a good BrainPickings this morning, the idea that intuition, emotional intelligence, is at the foundation of true intelligence… that intellectual intelligence is a kind of petrification of self without an intuitive sense of how things work… this is what reading the haiku every day is an effort to achieve, a kind of emotional intelligence… an intelligence of the moment… of seeing the moment in it’s simplest terms…

… a robin sings in the distance…

… it will be cool this week… how will my tomato plants fare?… my last zucchini plant is dying, has died… sad, will need to give them more space next year…

… Fiona woke me up last night… midnight… she was pacing the room like she does… strange though, the doors were open, she could have gone downstairs on her own if she wanted… she might have done if i had not gotten up…

… i meant to call C this week, but didn’t, feel a little guilty about that…